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Wow.... new blogger eh? Not sure how I feel about this change. Can you believe it has nearly been a whole year since I started this? Though I am not as active here as I was when this first started... I do keep another journal y'know and I tend to keep that one the most current, feel free to visit me there any time. Soooooo.... I did not get into my honours program, but maybe if I can pull my grades up a bit this year that may change... really though I am clueless as to what I wanna do when I grow up, as they say.... well I really just wanted to be a pirate like Anne Bonney.... arrrrr! Though my real Pirate name is Mad Grace Cash. I guess that is because I am a lunatic?
Friday, July 11, 2003
posted by Flick 7:41 PM
Fuck
Thirsty?
Starting to feel desperate
Hmmmm.....
see that banner right above this post? I made that :) It is actually my first attempt at making a banner, so I am sure they will get better.
Oh.... finally got my rent paid, just so you know and don't worry about me too much. I am back on medication too so I expect that I will be feeling a little happier soon enough. I know that may sound like a cruch, but depression has been a recurrent thing in my life since I was a teenager so really, it is a chemical thing, certain things, like being jobless just seem to trigger it though. I guess.
Thursday, May 15, 2003
posted by Flick 6:38 PM
Despite having looked for a job, and being a college grad, and having some university... I can't find a damn job... I hate my life.
My rent is late, I just don't have it, my bills are late, I had to scrounge for change to buy bread and milk... and just a few months ago, the guy I was dating was asking me to donate food from my cupboards to donate to the effing *soup kitchen* he had at his place..... that bothers me... someone that makes over $40000 asking me to donate food to their house (even after eating everything in mine). I mean I may be bitching about things that have already happened, but really I am looking at eviction really soon, perhaps having to make some other very difficult decisions... I may have to find homes for other people and pets and sell off my belongings pretty soon if I don't get a job... I hate this, what do you have to do to get a damn job?!!?!?! I hate my life, hate, hate, hate. I don't know what else to say... I don't think I will have internet for much longer so if I just disappear without a trace, maybe that is why.... I hope thigs get better. I am so depressed.
Tuesday, May 06, 2003
posted by Flick 11:55 AM
pull up a chair and get yourself some boob scotch on the rocks! Stir it up! Stir it up!
Monday, April 21, 2003
posted by Flick 2:54 AM
I am so fucking broke... as in broke as a joke, only I'm not laughing. I have been sending out resumes this week, to places that looked remotely interesting on the Canada Job Bank. I even got out there pounding the pavement in the morning... and it was not your typical warm spring day either... snow and ice everywhere in the aftermath of the ice storm that we got surprized with this week. I applied at Kinkos, Staples, Pet Valu, The Beer Store, Tim Hortons and The Stag Shop. Some one has to hire me... I'm a college grad for chrissake!! Is a job too much to ask for??? I hope someone hires me soon... if not, I need to figure out how I'm going to pay my rent. In the mean time, I am accepting donations to benefit none other than me.... yes, I really am this shameless.....
Sunday, April 06, 2003
posted by Flick 1:41 AM
you're emo!
How can I label you?
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Sunday, March 30, 2003
posted by Flick 5:49 PM
I must say I am feeling a little dejected... no reason really, I just get melancholy sometimes... I used to take pills for it but whatever. I did have a really awesome date last night though (first date), he drove me to the bowling party last week but that wasn't a date at all, that was basically our first meeting. Someone actually gave me shit for seeing other people, when that wasn't the case at all... I think they read to much into my journals, I guess that is the problem when you snoop on someones journal but are trying to make more out of what is actually there by over analysing. Whatever... I am just rambling because I am tired. Melancholy.
Anyways I briefly spoke to the ex's mom online yesterday and there was a deliberate mention of him going out with some gal named Sharon.... like I care anyway, but he did criticise me for seeing someone else so soon after our "taking a break". HA is it just me or does anyone else find other people's hypocrasy just a little amusing? Anyways... I have been thinking, it may be time to retire my blog.... nothing set in stone yet, but I hate when there are lurkers who read your blog for months without you having any awareness of it and then throw things in your face for speaking your mind in your own little corner of cyberspace. At least if I go to Live Journal I will be able to block anyone that is not on my friend's list... I can avoid being fucked up the ass that way (I am not talking about sex here either). If you are one of my blog buddies and I am well aware who those people are... I will let you all know in private how to find my new journal and add you to my friend's list so that you can snoop away with my blessing ( you know I luvs ya! ). To anyone else (and I am sure at least one of you knows who you are) if you like reading online journals so much, then take the time to become a member of a web based community, otherwise fuck right off! I am not trying to throw off the negative vibes here people, but now that I have come to a reasonable way of handling this situation I feel a lot better....
Saturday, March 29, 2003
posted by Flick 11:12 PM
